Today’s blog is a guest blog written by one of our incredible children’s authors, Kendall Concini-Moore! Make sure to check out her book in the shop and grab one for your little one, or as a gift for someone else’s.
Happy reading,
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If you told younger me I’d become an author one day, I’d laugh. But not as hard as if you told me I’d become a mother, because to say both were not on my bingo card is not a deep enough surprise.
With that said, my children were very intentionally planned. They were celebratory phoenix fires rising from the ashes of my inner-brain mental health dumpster fire struggles that told me my future was short. When I learned to rise, not only was it rewarding for myself, but it became something I had to share. And so. . .I became an author.
When I created my book, it began as an entry in a book publishing contest.
Pitched as an American Idol styled contest, you were meant to have an idea, enter the contest, advance through book creation stages & at the end come out with a ‘finished book’ that could win a package that included finalized editing, illustrations, publishing, marketing, etc.
When I spoke to the judges, I told my story:
“Horses, pirate penguins, dogs who eat, and once, a vacuum.”
These are just some of the topics my daughter has asked librarians to help her find.
And despite the odd, specific, or routine requests, we always came home with a book.
Until I asked a librarian for a book to help teach my daughter about my big feelings, depression.
I was handed clinical books, but they weren't what I wanted at her age.
I was handed children's books about emotions, but they were all cause & effect: I dropped my ice cream, so I’m sad, and then Mom cheers me up, usually fixing it.
Nothing about when a friend has emotions. Nothing about when your parents have emotions.
So I was lost. How do I talk about what’s going on through storytelling?
And when I couldn't find the book, I decided to write it.
It began as a scrapbook, a bedtime story, where Mom had big feelings: “A cloud came to stay, and Mom couldn't play. We'd move the cloud from location to location based on where we were: the beach, the park, the store.Then we let it sit in one place and become a full story, Mom’s Cloud and the Beach Adventure.”
While I was still in this contest, I continued to give my story away. I blogged, I instagrammed.
It resonated. I had an audience.
Then, I learned the next round was about an audience vote. I was ecstatic! Until the contest reached out that they were a bit mad because some of us had completely written our books already.
They had intended for us to only have a synopsis, an idea, and their writers would help us to fully develop the story. Hey, that's on their bad advertising & them not listening to my entire pitch and application story.
In their anger, in their proposals to help edit, redevelop, and finalize my story, I realized, Hey, these people are waiting for me to vote!
If they believed in me, I wouldn't need this contest.
I could make the book I was pitching without waiting. Without caving for their rules. Without their changes. And I could focus on the families who needed the support.
So we did.
We found Juliana, and in her we found a safe space to turn a story of struggles into a whimsical story of beauty, love, and understanding.
Where with every shady moment she drew, her art showed sunshine too, always there, always a part of us.
Most authors have stories in them their entire lives. They dream, pine, plan.
Admittedly, I did none of that.
Honestly, still, if given the chance, I would change, edit, and alter my work because my story is always evolving (good thing I signed up to make a lot of books) but that's the truth.
I am an author because I am an advocate.
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